April sure was a down month for the blog – only three days of posts. Hopefully May will be a little better, but the last few weeks have been pretty challenging with the usual suspects of work, family life, work, trying to buy and renovate my grandmother’s 102 year-old house. Still, life is good.
Some of Chris’ comments yesterday (see Bah Humbug!) really hit home. I bet if Kevin reads this he will start laughing because we frequently had this same sort of conversation.
The funny thing for me is that in the end, I think my love for videogames is being passed by my love for the good old days. The bigger issue is that I no longer feel inspired to write about games because I have less time to play them these days. When I do have time to play them, I do not want to worry about spending my free time writing, and I certainly do not want to spend my free time looking for issues (i.e. game flaws and bugs) that I have yet to discover.
So much has changed, but as I recently said in a previous post, and as Chris hinted at yesterday, maybe this has a lot to do with finally growing up. Maybe we are at the point where our innocence is long gone. Internet life and the gaming scene in general were so different in the mid to late 90s. It is almost impossible to explain if you were not “into” it back then, but if you were, you almost surely know what I am referring to and you almost certainly are feeling the same jaded frustrations.
The independent gamer of the past has faded away into obscurity; just look at this site’s history for an example, and look at what Chris is saying to understand that something extremely important and significant is going on in the gaming community. Many of us old bastards are becoming mainstream. The CG staff laughed at me a couple of years ago when I said as much about myself, but it is all too true, and Chris’ comments just confirm my belief that many of the stalwarts (if I can be so bold as to lump myself into that category) are passing the baton on to a new generation of gamers. What sort of nitch will they carve out? What will be their legacy? What will happen when the gaming community no longer gives a flying crap? Scary stuff; the torch really is passing … to where, I know not.
I am not saying that the mega sites do not have their place (I use them for video and images and the like), but the days of the individual contributor seem long gone. Who do you turn to when you want to find relevant gaming info? As guys like Chris fade out of gaming world (i.e. no longer covering games) so much is lost. It is really a damn shame, and from a selfish standpoint, I hate to see Chris and others get so jaded that they no longer feel passionate writing about games. I guess it is inevitable. Hopefully as Chris hinted, the world of the blog will open new doors and avenues so that the old bastards will continue to contribute in meaningful ways.
As for me, I will just try to keep on keeping on, but obviously the days of 4000+ word reviews are so far gone that no one seems to remember why we did that sort of stuff in the first place. The glory days of Usenet seem so far away …
To all you old bastards reading this blog, to past and current contributors, thanks for all the memories. You guys made (and hopefully will continue to make) gaming an entertaining endeavor.